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4.28.2026 5:58pm

Been a rough week with lots to do, I wish I had more time to work on my website but I literally cannot find/figure out how to make a website template that works for me for this journal OR the nsfw section (AKA the Freak Zone) and I get frustrated and leave it. Hopefully tonight will be more peaceful♥

4.25.2026 1:57pm

The last few days have been quite uninteresting, I find myself getting frustrated more sadly :c

Today I will probably add a link to the "NSFW ZONE" (Bleh, defo gonna work on the name lol). I also want to add shrines to my favs. I've been really really trying to narrow down what I'm going to make Shrines of but it's hard to condense so many interests. We'll have to see what I think up. For now I'm probably just gonna focus on making the Nsfw Zone and working on my Lucas OC. I've got some of his stuff worked out but I'm trying to whip it up fast. I want to tell his story without writing the WHOLE story and that gets hard for me. I overthink alot of the worldbuilding and even his backstory became paragraph after paragraph. Which I worry will turn people away from reading it.

2:22PM

My friend finally finished moving into their new house so we can game again!!! I missed playing with them so much and this means FINALLY more Marathon!♥

8:29PM

Today ended up being really frustrating and annoying. Sounds lame and loser asf but I just want a whole squad of fun, happy, excited friends to play games with constantly. I'm tired of being at the whim and will of random fuckass trolls in my games. I get so irrationally angry while everyone else seems able to ignore it better. I just genuinely don't understand why ppl are mean if you've done nothing to them? It makes me sick like you are genuinely less than human if you behave that way in any situation, online or irl.

4.21.2026 9:26pm - Picture of my doggo at bottom :3

Today was hard. I'm trying to be better. Go out more, do right by my dog and be less of a bedbound mess all day. But... It's still hard. I woke up angry and am just grateful I mellowed out and was able to be present with my dog, Teddy. He's my Sweet Pea but sometimes he is very overstimulating. As I've gotten older I haven't liked to be touched as much and well... he likes to jump, play attack and lick me all day long lol. He's just a little Yorkie so its not like painful -usually- but its very overwhelming. But it's something I'm taking one day at a time, we're getting him training and doggy daycare to help.

In other news I'm going to my best friends wedding in a few months!~♥ I'm so excited and happy for her!!! She asked me to be her MOH and its such an amazing honor to have

lmfao as I was writing this I was ALSO playing Valorant and some guy called me a "whore" for saying I've been with my bf (who was there lol) for 14 years lol. You can never win with cismen sometimes. When they hear a feminine voice engaging with them in video games its as if most feel threatened? Like I know alot of men feel like "women don't belong in gaming" (barf) but like... can other men PLEASEEEE just go to therapy instead of using misogyny to vent their frustrations and stroke their egos??? I am so tired of them ruining the gaming spaces with their unnecessary hostility and bullshit. Anyway, back to my dog. Here he is :3

4.20.2026 6:37am

HAPPY 420!!! Get absolutely blasted today if you like to get high y'all!XD

I pulled another all-nighter trying to figure out the code for Lucas's OC page. I can't seem to find any Character Sheet templates and the one I have rn I got before I found out the creator uses ai :(((( SO that's gotta go soon. I have basically spent 24/7 with this website, last week flew by in a blur and now it's already Monday morning! Ugh!

Today I'm gonna spend more time with my dog today, he loves having alot of attention so I'll try to give him as much as possible :3

Anywho, I fixed most (some) of the issues I had with the homescreen after accidentally deleting the code... Realized I hadn't saved a copy of the code for over 12 hours too. Rough asf LMFAO. But since I've fixed most (some) of the code I'm gonna try to get an hour of sleep! Good night!♥

4.19.26 10:53am

Good morning, todays total focus will be on styling this journal, I feel like its too "light" on the colors, I really prefer darker webpages so I will be focusing the aesthetic around that.Also for some reason the "text align:center" command code isn't working for the dates so that sucks. But I'll figure it out.

my bf helped me figure it out so yay!

I'll also probably add a section to document my dreams. Lately I've been woken up abruptly which disrupts me being able to remember my dreams, but typically they are very interesting (to me) so I wanted to share some of the ones I have recorded here, hopefully I'll figure out a format that makes sense.

4.19.26 2:48PM

I decided to just make the text larger instead of trying to encourage zooming into the journal because I just didn't like the hassle or style of the small text. Also changed the text back to white to be more readable. I wont claim this site is accessable to all (YET((im sorry))) but I want it to be as readable as it can with the styles that I'm using. Gonna try to add blinkies and maybe change the background to a darker fabric.

Kinda sucks that I have to write the entries in code then upload to website, I wish I knew how to just add a working digital journal but oh well lol. Also I've realized this will be too long to scroll to new entries if I keep writing in this format. Hmmm... I guess I could make THIS PAGE the "Latest Entry" Page and the Right Page the other monthly entries going from newest to oldest? Does that even make sense? Fuck it we ball!

Alright I've changed up alot of stuff (feels like alot looks like a little ;0;) so now I'm just gonna websurf :3

4.19.26 12:30am

wow, everyday is a blur. It all goes by so fast. There are some important tasks I've been procrastinating that I really can't afford to. I just feel like I never have enough time in a day.

4.18.26

Still not sure how exactly I will label my tabs or how exactly I'll organize the actual "journal" that I'll be using here. I know I'd like to fill the tabs with cool and interesting things that make me happy though so we shall see!

Also, I love this template but it strains my eyes how small the journal book is ;0; so I am sorry to anyone like me who always has to zoom in XD
I'm double sorry because I'm about to make the text smaller for aesthetic purposes

Had to redo the whole page because I somehow permanently deleted every other tab but tab 1 and couldnt figure out how to put it back (>_<)